My first interview.

I have never had an interview before. Today is the day when I have my first interview. It is an interview of applying a graduate school. And this is a really long story.

Long time ago, I decided to apply for graduate schools so I went to cram school preparing the exams. However, I don't really want to go to graduate school so I stopped studying after chinese new year. Before I took the exams, I just finished less than one fifth of all books. I never expected to pass.


I was freaked out when I took the exams. Most of the questions are questions and answers, not multiple choice, so rationally, I did it very bad. All I answered were only one third of whole questions and I was not sure for half of my answers. I took them very easy.

The consequences showed that I failed in two school, and passed in one school. I was really surprised that I can pass for the exams. I can't believe it at all. Therefore, I got a chance to interview. If I make it, I will go graduate school. The interview was not easy to prepare. I need two recommendation letters, and a report card, and my autobiography. The report card are easy because I can just apply one, but the others are difficult. First, I don't know how to write a good autobiography. I don't know what are needed in an autobiography so I searched in the internet, asked some people, and even copy some templates. I wrote one finally, but it seemed not good enough. Anyway, it is much better than nothing. Second, I have to ask two professors who is willing to write me an recommendation letter. Wow, I didn't know who should I ask because there are some records that professor would turn students down in letter, or even refuse to write one for students. Whereas, I was lucky to have two letters in the end.

Last but not least, I don't know what should I wear to be proper enough. Some people said I should wear very formally, some people said I don't need to wear too formally. besides, it cost me a lots of money to prepare what I wore. That is really a big deal!

When I was interviewing with professors, they asked many questions which is not related directly to the graduate school. They were like chatting. They didn't ask any professional questions. That made me really relive indeed but I just have a bad feeling of this interview. And the worst things is that I finished this interview much earlier than the other candidates. Dose it mean that I don't have any hope to go to that graduate school?

My body is killing me!!!

Since I have been preparing for applying postgraduate school, it has been a long time since I stopped playing volleyball. Yesterday, I got a free time, so I went to a ball game. Honestly, the game was not intense, but I got up from the bed this morning with pain all over my body. All of my muscle complained me about over exercising.

However, I disregard my pain and hang out with friends this afternoon. I rode my motorcycle to had my lunch with my friends. And, wow! This lunch was great. I could possibly go to it next time. Then, we went to a department store. On the top of the department store, there is a amusement park. There are archery, Ferris wheel, arcade games, and other stuffs. Anyway, I played archery and some games. I found out that doing an archery really needs some strength. I got too painful this day so I couldn't shoot the arrow on the target. Maybe it is just an excuse. Whereas, my friend is good at archery. He shoot all of his arrows on the target. Good for him!

After that, we went home right after we finished the dinner. When I sit down on my desk, I can't believe I spent so much money today! I think I have to save money in the couple of days.

About the future

The things I see in future of my life are miserable, depress, and dilemma. I don't know why I am so pessimistic. There should be some light in the dark. As the saying goes, "When god closes a door, somewhere he opens a window." But, I just can't find the window.

In Taiwan, people get high graduation with high degree. Too many people got master degree or PhD. Therefore, we have a myth that people who have higher degree will find better jobs. I can't deny all of these words. A good job with high payment and respect can only be done perfectly by people with excellent abilities. However, a person who got higher degree doesn't mean they have better abilities. Nowadays, many people in Taiwan went to a postgraduate school just for degree. That is ridiculous.

I don't like research very much so I don't really want to get a master degree right now. But, if I don't go to postgraduate school, I have to get a job. It is really difficult to get a job in this economical depress. Even if I go to postgraduate school just because I don't want to find a job now, I would face the same problem when I got a master degree. What am I supposed to do then? Should I face the music and find a job, or keep avoiding to get a PhD? And what should I do when I have gotten PhD? These are really hard questions for me. But there is one thing I am sure is that when I got PhD, there will be less things that I could choose.

The reason is simple. If I got a job after I finish junior high school, I can do everything as long as the job can feed me and this kind of jobs are pretty many. However, if I am a PhD, I may not be like a waiter for living. I should be supposed to be a professor or a researcher, and if I don't good enough, I will not have any job.

The progress of the class

In my university, teachers still teach students in Chinese. Only few of courses are taught in English. All of them are in the department of medicine because there are international students in department of medicine. I have heard that teachers didn't do well in the English taught classes. Most of students didn't understand what teachers was trying to express even international students. Yeah, that means teachers are not good at speaking English. Therefore, the attendance rate of the courses became lower and lower because many students decided to study by themselves. However, English taught courses still went on without any hesitation.


Last week, one of my teachers, in department of medical laboratory science, told us a news that our department will accept international students after about two years, and it means all the professional courses in our department will be taught in English. If everything goes well for me, I would not take the English taught courses. Whereas, the English taught class is not only difficult to students but teachers. All of us don't have experience of this kind of classes, so Miss Huang, one of our teachers decided to try it in this semester. She held a course which will be taught in English. Actually, this course is more like PBL, problem based learning in short.

Today, in the first class of PBL course, Wanda volunteered to be the first one to introduce the first case of the course. She is good at English. She also speaks English very well, but she seems very nervous, and so do I. I am not used to speak English in front of people even though I would speak English to myself sometimes. She introduced the case fluently and brought up some questions for us to discuss. All of us used very suck English communicating, and we got stocked very often because we couldn't understand each others. Every body tried very hard. As for me, I could mostly understand the conversation, but I couldn't speak even a word. I don't think the reason why I couldn't speak is because I am too nervous to speak. I think the main reason is that I am too shy. I would not speak even the class is taught in Chinese.

Nevertheless, the class was end perfectly. All of us spoke English while we were discussing the case. None of us spoke Chinese. This course is not essential but optional. Many people dropped it because of English, but I didn't. I think it is a great chance to practice professional English. It is not easy to have this opportunity.

Being shoot can be exhausted.

I am going to graduate from university, so every one in my class have to take a commemorative graduation photography. Since I am in an university, taking this kind of pictures can be very different from the time when I was in high school, or elementary school graduation. Being shoot alone, with friends, or with all classmates and teachers, there are too many kinds of pictures to be shoot now, and there are also different places for us to be shoot.

Today, I got a lots of pictures shoot with different places, different clothes, and different people. The most tiring thing I think is about places, and clothes. Because the sun was very big today which made me feel sun burned after I went out for 10 minutes, and we had many clothes to change, like casual wearings, academic dresses, and lab coats. So, it was hot when I put on each clothes, not mention how harsh it is when I was doing it. Besides, the photographer asked us to do many different postures while we were taken photos. This is the first time I feel that being taken pictures can be so exhausted.

I always don't like to be taken pictures because I feel weird to smile at nothing but a camera, and I don't think I am looked good in photos. Maybe I am not looked good at all, but at least I don't need to look myself in usual time. However, I like to take pictures of others cause that makes me don't need to be taken photos by others. Ha Ha!!!