Disorder of Emotion

It is always sunny in Kaohsiung, but not in my mood. I am very down recently, worrying many things such as exam, life and society. I really want to hit something until my hand is broken. Only to do so, my anger can be eliminated.

Yesterday, I had a dinner with my classmates. I am “looked” happy, just look like happy. One of my classmates joked on me, and I also play a trick, hitting his arm. In fact, I was not unhappy about his joke, but it seemed that I used too many strength. He looked like hurt very much. I felt sorry to him. I cannot control my strength when I am in bad mood. Maybe, I used my biggest strength. When I felt something wrong, I apologized to him flippantly; actually I am seldom serious in front of others except my family. I felt that he was very angry after I hit him. I really didn’t do it on purpose. I just wanted to make fun, but it was not fun to him.

I hope that I can get through this emotion quickly. With this emotion, I cannot sleeping, studying and do many things. If this situation continue for a long time, my prediction would come true.